Elegy on my loves-part 1

Yee, i fell in love with all thee
and what i got
nothing but a damn haunting loneliness
.................a line written by me

well I have had my shares of love, crushes and infatuations and nothing was fruitful. I failed to score here and I don't know where things go wrong

Now here are the list of the girls I fell in love with....you decided were they all futile...due to privacy I am only giving their initials but later on I may give their names....

the list is random

O-my first love. Saw her in bhattu's tuition for the first time and it was love at first sight. Things could have been better but it didn't. I was just screwed up by her.
The date was 2nd of april,2004. Of all the girls there I have to fall in love with her. Sigh

Why I fell in love with her?
Her beauty and her attitude

Why I lost her?
Lost her. I didn't even proposed her. I could have. I went to speak to her but things didn't turn out right. Fuck.Anyways she made a mockery of my love. I can never forgive her for that. I loved her truly and in my universe she will always have a special space as she made me a rebel, a dreamer and also an asshole
But she knew I loved her and guess what...she just loved chiding me.
But I will be ever grateful to her for being the fodder of my upcoming fantasy book which is still under progress.

K-met her in orkut. she became my best friend in a very short time. I was in twelfth standard then and had seen her perform a song on stage. She was beautiful and well u know am a sucker for good looking girls. It was somewhere around august, 2006 when I had first seen her. And I joined orkut in october. Initial talks and well we became good friends.
And I don't know why when I did proposed her she said yes. It was semi-mode. I mean she was not sure or seeing that I was such a pathetic loser that she was just playing along with me.
Oh she was daughter of one of my teachers in school. Huh big deal about that. Anyways as I was saying she wanted to see my pictures and my school friends in orkut were keeping a track of my progress.

Why I lost her?
My friends told 'why did you showed her your picture man?'
But then still we were in speaking terms. Our first fight occurred after my first proposal when one of her so called para-tuto bhai[its a colloquial term which means just a so called brother without any blood relations] threatened me for proposing her and well I was his senior so I abused the hell out of him which made her mad. She didn't like people abusing and my slang collection is pretty inexhaustible.. Anyways after a lot of kookooing sorry and promising not to repeat the mistake and then again even saying sorry to that bastard our friendship resumed only to fall apart after a few days.
I gave her a piece of my mind on that day. Actually I was at fault for breaking the friendship but then the words she had used against me during out first fight was still fresh in my memory and I took my revenge. It was sweet. And this way my second love ended too.Gone gone and gone and no I don't regret it because she was fucked up in her mind, bloody snobbish bitch....
Another character of my book....Thanks for nothing girl.....

Well I shall continue with this post again tomorrow......its quiet long.....